Today was a little better. My good friend, Suzanne, is in town from Berkeley this weekend and we hit the spa this afternoon for much needed massages. This was my first massage in 2 years and it was wonderful, I was convinced the masseuse had cured my cancer.

I was able to hold some food down today but it was a constant struggle to do so, I could really do without this nausea. I am quitting these steroids cold turkey as of this morning, they are making me so sick and I can't get any sleep. I am sure if I didn't offer to quit taking them today, Joel would have poured them down the sink by now anyway, I have been a crazy person on these things. I now know the true meaning of "roid rage", and unfortunately Joel has had to witness it firsthand. I couldn't ask for a better husband, he has so much patience with me. You guys get the sugar-coated version of all of this, he has to see it in all of its glory every day. Trust me, I would not recommend this cancer business to any of my friends!